Christmas time!

So, the tree is decorated. The stockings are hung with care. My hubby has once again gone nuts on the outside decorations. So, why does it not feel like a holly jolly time? It has been a rough month or so. I just can't seem to get into the holiday spirit. Sometimes life is not fair. Sometimes I do the wrong thing and question Gods plan. I am Gods "child", so would it be ok to lay on the floor and throw a hissy fit? I of course won't, but the thought is there. It is not place to question the "plan". It is how ever human of me to not like it sometimes.
So, if you find my holiday spirit, please send it my way. I know my family would sure like to see it alive and kicking....